Wait, sounds like an oxymoron, a contradiction in terms, right. Well, kinda...
We're finishing up our first full week back to school, the summer is gone, and as you may have noticed I haven't blogged much on this site this summer. I'm busy trying to write for two others, and this one kinda of got neglected.
I was happy and sad at the same time to say goodbye to summer. It was insanely busy and I almost went insane trying to meet all my obligations at the same time trying to make sure the kids still have a fun summer. And the part that almost sent me over the edge was the fact that this was the first summer since I've had kids that I've worked full time. I kinda had a hard time with that. I love my job and what I do, but it was a hard transition to say the least. And it showed. In my attitude, in how I treated people, in how I acted towards my kids and family. So when I finally did lose it about halfway through the summer I realized that I had a lot on my mind and that the transition from me being a stay at home momma to being a full time working mom was changing our family dynamic. We needed to be ready to adapt to that. It's a really big change and can be hard to adjust. Things that normally might bother me that I could deal with most of the time, were sending me straight over the edge because I was so stressed out.
Who did I turn to when I needed to vent? Well the usual suspects first - my mom, my husband, the mommy friends who know me and understand me and love me for who I am no matter how stressed out I get.
And, Facebook. Not a good idea.
Don't get me wrong. It feels GREAT to vent and have that virtual soapbox that I can preach from, and complain from, to my 700 friends. It feels great for about 5 seconds. Then it feels yucky again. It's great because you will have some friends (the ones who haven't hidden you yet b/c of your crazy rants) that will be supportive and will try to console you. But then you start thinking about how many people you're airing your dirty laundry to, and well, you just kinda feel like that person nobody likes b/c all they do is talk about how BAD everything is. And most people that know me in real life know that despite my worrying, I'm a pretty upbeat person. When people started coming up to me and asking me how I was doing, because they saw my last Facebook post, I realized enough was enough
No one wants those kinds of friends in the real world. why do they want to have them on Facebook? I started to remind myself of the couple of friends I have on my list that drive me crazy with their bitchy rants all the time about everyone and everything. I am not one of those people. If I have a problem with something, I need to go to the source and work it out, not blast it to hundreds of people who don't care really, and don't know me well enough not to think that I'm a psycho and have no idea whats going on in my real life.
People rant about all sorts of things on Facebook. If it's a once in a while thing, well everyone does it. But don't you want to spread more positivity in the world than not? After I finished my rant, I realized enough was enough. I decided I need to be more positive. I also deleted 120 friends. All people I would NEVER think of walking up to in real life to say "hey, know what I'm pissed about today?" My life is pretty good. I really don't have that much to complain about anyway.
